LDS, Married, & Gay

I got this link off of Karissa's blog- (thanks for sharing), but I find it very interesting and it has made me think of my own beliefs and feelings on this subject.  Being LDS myself, and knowing (and loving) many people in my life who are homosexual- it has brought new light to the subject.  I am still pondering on all of it- but thought I'd better record it for future reference as well as share with all of you.  Hope it doesn't offend or persuade any of you- just thought it important and interesting. :-) 

http://www.joshweed.com/2012/06/club-unicorn-in-which-i-come-out-of.html

Enjoy!! 

Thoughts

I know that I haven't posted any pictures in my posts as of late, but I just really haven't taken the time to upload any recent ones.  Sorry to those of you who look forward to that.  However, as I have mentioned before, I enjoy using this blog as a sort of journal, and that is the purpose that this post is going to serve- so feel free to skip if you would like. :-)
There has been so much going on lately, not necessarily in my individual life, just around me it feels like.  I have had some pretty intense, profound feelings in the past couple of months.  What I am beginning to recognize is that these feelings as are maybe more of promptings.  I feel like a crazy person sometimes even thinking that, but I seriously cannot fight it back.  A few of these promptings I have not acted upon, and end up wishing I had- and the reasons for which I should have are clear as day!!  I don't feel like I need to or should mention who or what these promptings involve- for one, there are just too many and for another- I feel like it is pretty personal. 
I also feel very grateful and blessed to be experiencing this.  Heck- it could very easily be all in my own head, and while sometimes I feel like it is, I also have a hard time believing that.  I dunno- just wanted to get it out.   

Boredom!

Funny thing boredom is... I just had knee surgery, and man is this laying around doing nothing business killing me.  So I have decided to babble yet again on my blog.  While I hope you enjoy reading, this blog is mostly for my family and I so that we can remember feelings, events and life.  So hopefully you don't find boredom while reading :-)  Not much is new in our lives.  We are still living in Cory's parents basement, and it is working out just fine.  Although I would MUCH rather be in our own place, we just aren't sure where our lives will be taking us right now.  Tenley is now 18 months old.   She had her well baby check just the other day, and she is healthy and smart.  She is getting such an attitude, and I can just feel those terrible two's coming on. 

We are selling our trailer that we bought to live in in Nevada.  So if anyone is interested, PLEASE let me know.  Also, I am considering selling my wedding dress and prom dress, any takers??  Ugh, seriously the things that cross my mind while laying around.....  Anyway, seems to be that even blogging is finding boredom. :-(

We're Home......

Turns out the 6 month to 1 year job that we thought Cory had in Nevada has been cut dramatically short.  We found out a few days after Christmas that Cory was going to be laid off and thus transferred back to Utah.  He already has a new job with another company here in Utah, doing the same apprenticeship program, but man has this thrown us for a loop. 
We made so many life changes to go out to Nevada, and come to find out it was for a very short period of time.  I find myself feeling very stressed, frustrated, grateful (to be home), among many other emotions.  For now we will be staying with Cory's parents because everything is still up in the air as to how long we will be in Utah for, which is probably what stresses me out the most.  I am a very big planner, and not having a plan really makes me on edge- ugh.  I just keep telling myself that everything will work itself out, and try not to stress about it.  I am very blessed to have an amazing family, amazing friends, and a very loving and supportive Heavenly Father to help me get through it all. 
Tenley is still growing like a little weed and she is starting to get four molars- yes, not just one or even two- but four all at the same time- poor girl!!  She is a jabber box and can speak so very well.  Love her to pieces. 

With the new year now in full swing, I have still not written down my goals.  I feel like I have so many floating around in my head, I just need to get them down.  Hopefully this year will be as great as the last, and we will be able to encounter some new adventures.  Welcome 2012- so much for the end of the world you crazy people!!!!!

Babble

I am undecided on the decision to go private with my blog!!!  I had made the decision to do so- obvious in the previous post- but now I just cannot decide.  I have a lot of family members who do not have blogger accounts, thus making viewing what our little family is up to sort of difficult for them.... ugh, just cannot decide!!  Thanks to those of you who have given me your emails- if I do go private I will surely add you, but as of now, I am still on the fence!! 

That said, the Christmas season has been a lot different for me this year.  I am very VERY used to christmas tree hunting, christmas decorating, SNOW, being around family, and believe it or not, just the way that the community at home feels during Christmastime.  It just has this special feeling about it!!  Did I mention SNOW??  I really am missing the SNOW SNOW SNOW!!! 
However, it has helped me to focus more on what Christmas is really about.  I have actually read a lot of articles out of the Ensign about Christ's birth, and also his life.  It has really helped me to be very grateful for Him,  His Life, and the huge sacrifice he made for us- The Atonement.  I have always known that we celebrate Christmas symbolically for Christ, but I was easily caught up in the commercial aspect of Christmas rather than the true meaning!!  Anyway, just a little food for thought!

The people of Alamo are so very nice, and have been so welcoming.  I am starting to adjust and get used to life in a trailer, and also not knowing people.  Still miss home very very much, but life is really great for the most part.  Tenley is growing up so quickly and I feel like it is just flying by.  She lights up when Cory comes home from work, and Cory does the same- highlight of my day!! 

Hope you are all having a great Christmas season!!! 

The time as come.... Going Private!!

Hi everyone!!!  I have made the decision to take our lovely little blog private!!  I have decided that since I am updating quite frequently now, sometimes with our location and personal information, that I will make our blog private!  So.... if you would like to keep following, you know the drill!!!! 

Tenley Jo!!

The following is an ode to my beautiful not-so-baby girl.... can't get enough of her, and need to get a few tidbits down on paper. 

This beautiful sweet pea is almost 16 months old, and I can't even imagine where the time as gone, or even when or how she has gotten so big!!!  She is the light of my life and at the same time drives me absolutely crazy somedays!!!  (you all know EXACTLY what I mean)  

First of all- SHE HAS ATTITUDE!!!!  Yes this little girl is completely full of it!!!  She has a mind of her own!!!  She is a talking machine and can say so many things.  Sometimes she will suprise us by saying exactly what we are saying, so very clearly- makes you wonder how much she really can say but chooses not to.  Of course she has picked up on the wonderful word "NO"- and uses it quite frequently.  She can say Mommy, Daddy, Nana, Papa, Coco, Colby, Teegan (both cousins of hers), milk, binkie, book, bug, butterfly, he-he (horse) puppy, kitty, sucker, candy, grape, apple, cheese, movie, piggie, rat, (i'll explain later) spider, bye-bye, hi, boo, bite, snack, thank you, ....  I am absolutely sure that I am missing many things, but for the moment that is all that I can think of.  

Tenley is currently obsessed with the movie Charlotte's Web- explaining the words piggie, rat, and spider. 

Also, she loves to sing "Itsy Bitsy Spider" and knows the hand motions to it.  She loves patty cake, and also "This little piggie".  

She is into absolutely everything.  Living in this trailer, it feels like it is always a mess.  I pick up one thing just to find her into another :-)  Joys of motherhood!!!  She loves to "help" me wash the dishes and cook dinner- or whatever meal it is that I am preparing. 

Whenever we sit down for a meal at the table, she will fold her arms to get ready to pray- CUTEST THING EVER!!!!  When her daddy gets home from work at night, she gets so excited she doesn't know what to do with herself.  She runs toward him, then runs away laughing, then comes back and dances in front of him- it is so adorable.  Speaking of dancing- Tenley is a very distinguished dancer.  She can shake it like no tomorrow and it is so dang cute!!!  

Right now, Tenley is still napping twice a day, once around 10:30 and once around 3:30.  She is pretty to the minute on her schedule!!!  

Mostly, I just love her dearly.  She is such a joy to be around, and is always making me laugh.  Can't believe how fast time flys, it is definitely bittersweet...  sad to think that she was just a tiny baby, but exciting to see what else she is going to be able to do, and the amazing woman that she will someday grow into!!!  

Life Is Great- Hope you are all enjoying it!!!!